Advice - 2003

laugh off the pain, rejection, and sorrow
hide behind a smiling face
leave it all in the past
the hurt will disappear
let the world believe you are happy
though inside you are dying
smile and let the world believe you’re OK
don't let them see the tears
wait until dark when you cannot be seen
then you can cry, let the pain flow out
keep it inside you until you explode
then they can see what has happened to you
in the morning when they ask of your tear-stained face
lie and tell of a sad song heard
they will believe
if only you smile

If Only - 2003

If only you knew
How I feel inside
If only you knew
How you made me cry
If only you knew
How it hurts to know
If only you remembered
How I loved you so
If only you could hear
The cry of my lonely heart
If only you could see
The scars surrounding me
If only you knew
What my heart longs to say
If only you knew
I might live another day
If only

Good Night - 2003

Good night, good night
We now must part
Ever will we meet again?
As I walk along life’s narrow path
I’ll think of you often
Every thought, I’ll see your face
Every touch, your sweet embrace
Will I ever know your love again?
Good night, good night
We will meet again
Life is brief, but time is eternal
I will love you ‘til the day I die
“Good night” I’ll say
But never shall I say “Goodbye”

Could You Ever - 2003

Could you ever know
Why the night is so cold
Could you ever hear
Those who cry in the dark
Could you ever wonder
What life would be like
Could you ever care
How you hurt someone so bad
Could you ever know
Why the wind cries so loud
Could you ever
You would know
You would feel
You would cry
You would laugh
And you would die

I Don't Really Have a Choice - summer 2003

The steps are cold
But here I sit
The door is closed
But here I stay
I cannot hear
But still I listen
I cannot see
But still I watch
They told me I don’t want to be there
But what if I do?
I don’t really have a choice
All I see are shadows
Moving under the door
All I hear are mumbled voices
Under the noise of the washing machine
I do not know what they are saying
Still, I know it can’t be good
I don’t want to be a part of it
I know that for a fact
But I don’t really have a choice

Before I Met You - 2003 (version 2)

I knew you before I met you
I met you in a dream
I woke up crying in your arms
You took away my tears
I felt your eyes, your loving eyes
Find me in the crowd
Was it really you?
The jealous eyes that watched
As I talked to a long lost love
The gentle hand
The tender words
Comforting my tears
Truth is only known by God
I do not know what’s real
Was it you there in my dream?
There is something special about you
What it is, I do not know
But I do know…
I loved you before I met you
I met you in a dream
I woke up crying in your arms
And you swept me off my feet
Before you even knew me

And No One Really Cared - 2002

No one knew just who she was,
And no one really cared.
She was always happy,
Never sad.
For some reason,
Unknown to us all
We hated her.
We hated her happiness.
We hated the wonder.
The wonder of why she was happy
Though everyone hated her.
No on e knew just who she was,
And no one really cared.
She was happy,
She was hated,
Until one day
When all that changed…
”The hatred has become too much!”
We heard her say that day
No one knew just what she meant,
And no one really cared.
No one knew her
Yet she was always happy.
Until that day
She just disappeared
As if nothing mattered at ll.
It was almost like a dream.
Here one day and gone the next.
And no one really cared.