My Own Knight - 2004

I sit alone, watching and waiting
For you to come
For you to rescue me
Others have rode by
But none have stopped
And none have helped
I see them all, as they pass me by
Alas, none have seen my face
I wait for you all day and night
To come riding by on your brilliant white horse
With your sword to your side
And the wind to your back
To come whisk me away to a palace some place
Where we can live happy in peace
In the distance I often see you
Galloping lightly toward my home
And then when you reach here,
You gallop on by
It was not you at all
He was a knight for someone else
Someone other than me
So I sit here and wait
For you to come along
To sweep me off my feet
And take me away from here
I sit here and wait
For a knight of my own

My New Year's Eve - 2004

This song is about the heartache
That you gave to me
This song is about the love we shared
And my New Year’s Eve

Death defines its victims
In the valley lies its shadow
Mountains peak at midnight
When you’re knocking on my window

I let you take my heart
Let you break it in two
I blamed youfor the heartache
And the pain that I’ve been through

Was it really our fault that you hurt me?
Was it really my fault that I died inside?
Is it really our fault that we are who we are?

You are who you are
I’ll be who I choose to be
Someday I’ll know the reason
And if you really loved me

This song is about the heartache
That you gave to me
This song is about the love we shared
This is my New Year’s Eve

Life is but a dash - 2004

Life is but a dash
A race to the end
To live the best
To be the best
Life is but a dash

I tried to call - 2004

I tried to call
I tried to say
How much I need you’re help today
You do not listen
You do not hear
The tears my heart now cries
I'm crying out
I'm dying now
You look away and smile
Changing subjects right and left
You cannot see my fear
I'm loosing you with every word
I whisper in your ear
You only hear me when you want
You never see my tears
I need a shoulder
I need a hug
I need a heart
That will listen

I love you more than life itself - 2004

I love you more than life itself
A dangerous way to live
I love you, dear, with all my heart
There’s nothing left to give

I Love You - 2004

I love you
but I fear you'll never know it
I love you
yet I fear I'll never show it
I love you
There's no way left to fight it

My heart tells me one thing
My brain tells me another
The world says it is wrong
The same world tells me that its right
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
My brain's a hopeless jumble
of expressions of my love for you
the love I'll never show

Dear God, why must it be this way?
Why must my brain run dry?
Why can I not see past the edge
of what I should not do?

I know its crossed your mind before
just as it has done mine
I know you've thought it once or twice
or three or four... or more

I do not know what I can do
to show you all my thanks
I fear the only thing to do
is what I should not do

Why must these things forever be
on my brain all day?
I cannot think of anything
without the thought of you

I love you
but I fear you'll never know it
I love you
yet I fear I'll never show it
I love you
There's no way left to fight it

Hurting Me - 2004

Hurting Me
lyrics by: Katie Farris and Valen Fisher
boy girl duet

Just sit back, let it go, watch the sun rise

We used to sit and watch the sun rise
Sit and talk all day
But every time I looked in your eyes
You'd take my breath away

There's something new about you
I can see it in your eyes
There's not the same intentions
There's not the same delight

I'll always be here for you
I was here the whole time
Always telling you the truth
But the truth’s so hard to find

chorus:
Just sit back let it go and watch the sunrise
So many voices deep inside me
Telling me to let it go
I can’t believe I hurt so badly
I thought I could be strong
But now its over and done
And you’re hurting me

If you'd come knocking on my window
I'd come join your would outside
Maybe then we'd watch the sun rise
And everything would be just fine

You come knocking on my window
In the middle of the night
You say you wanna watch the sun rise
Till morning’s full light

I'll always be here for you
I was here the whole time
Always telling you the truth
But the truth's so hard to find

chorus:
Just sit back let it go and watch the sunrise
So many voices deep inside me
Telling me to let it go
I can’t believe I hurt so badly
I thought I could be strong
But now its over and done
And you’re hurting me

Hope - 2004

The night holds many secrets
Only the daylight could expose,
But daylight’s nowhere near
I fear that all is lost
For daybreak comes, but shadows linger still
It’s morning now the sun has risen
But Heaven’s sake! It’s hidden
By a cloud of gloomy gray
That billows looming near
It’s growing blacker as the sun
Rises higher in the sky
It’s trying hard to block the light
Whose rays are shining through
Though little light it still brings hope
The cloud may disappear
If all on earth may soon agree,
My dear, we may be free
From all the burdens of the night
By which we’re bound in chains
Oh look! Another ray shines through
And radiates the dew
For Hope is a bird that never rests
For she must always fly
She has no feet to walk about,
No nest to rest her wings
So she must always do her job
To brighten one and all
With songs of Peace that fill the air
And smiles through the strangers stare
Oh look, my darling, there it goes!
The cloud has run away
Alas, I fear it is too late
The sun behind the mountain fades
The night has come again
But listen close and you will hear
The bird who sings her songs through the storm
And through the gale as well
It sings and spreads the joy around
To every house in every town
Hope beats away the big black cloud
With Peace upon her wing
And then she sings another song
Of Love to one and all
But this must wait another day
For now the day is gone

His Touch - 2004

Though I’ve never felt his touch
I can feel his arms around me
As he draws me closer in
A single kiss
A final breath
And no one could express
The love I feel tonight
I never felt his love ‘til now
Never shall I cast my eye
Upon his manly form
His loving eyes
The tears I feel
Them wrapping round me go
I love him more with every breath
I take as memories flow
Forever is my love for he
The one who’d give up all for me

Hide Away - 2004

They’re all looking at me
I cannot let them see the fear
They must never see my tears
So I hide behind my neon sign
And hope they never notice me
My only goal: INVISIBILITY
Maybe if I’m lucky
They’ll all just go away

For every time I caused you pain - 2004

For every time I caused you pain
For every time I slandered your name
For every ounce of sorrow I brought
For every moment of pain I wrought
For every time I told you a lie
For every time you thought I might die
For everything else I cannot express
For every moment without the slightest caress
I cry my tears like the morning dew
To say that I’m sorry for hurting you

My eyes are my signature
There need not be
An end to this verse
For the end is me

The First of Many More - 2004

I saw you standing there that day
The first of many more
I watched you as you glanced my way
The first of many more
Our conversations lasted long
I knew you heard my heart’s true song
Secrets cloud the sky above
They’ll never understand our love
The glances stopped
Our talks grew few
Secrets shadowed over lies
Your heart grew cold
My heart grew bold
Until one fateful night I found
Myself lost in your eyes
Slowly then, again we saw
The truth behind the tattered wall
Our love they’ll never understand
Perhaps it is the best
Our songs we sing in harmony
Though secrets still may be
The final puzzle piece – a kiss
The first of many more

The Empty Book - 2004

The tear-stained pages
Of my empty book
Cry out with the reddest ink
They breathe new life
To the simplest things
As birds and bees
Lighting and trees

As the sky lights up
With the morning dew
I close the book
Whose empty pages
Never shall be seen