Surviving: Part 1

a cut too deep
a trip to the ER
6 stitches
don't like to keep
secrets

my friends
call the cops
try to 302 me
i laugh and lie
my way into
some fake sanity

a night of
contemplation
a note
and then
a prayer

forced conversations
with too many
important strangers

too many worries
not enough tears
and i just wish i
could just
disappear